Self esteem/ confidence

Hey Guys,

This post, has to say the least, been difficult to write. I am not sure why exactly, but this has been a really big deal for me! So some people don’t fully understand what self esteem and self confidence is, basically it is a feeling of doubt in what you do, what you think as a person and it is easily affected by many things. That is what I understand it to be anyway.

I first want to say that I in no way think my experience of this is greater than others, fully understand some people have different experiences and in some cases worse ones 😦 . And I wanted to briefly share my experience and what I plan to do about it, because I am taking action. Well, I want to.

My self confidence means I do not like trying new things, I always overthink things and play out scenarios in my head thinking of the worst possibilites. I feel like I cannot move on in life until it comes to a point where I feel comfortable doing something, aware of the consequences, but still enjoying myself. Because I simply cannot enjoy myself and ‘live life to the full’! I want to be able to try new things, experience new places in my life. It’s weird, just trying to put it into words is so difficult!

An example of my self confidence is this very blog. I think only a handful of my friends are aware of this blog, I have chosen to not share it with all of my friends because in my mind I believe that my ‘friends’ will put me down about it with negative comments, like I say I play out the worst scenario and I believe this to be it.

I think societal pressures have caused people to have bad self confidence. Like, if we do something different that is not us (like me and this blog) then people look at you funny or say something negative, and that kind of thing would put me down and prevent me from doing anything else.

In societies defense, some people can be really supportive of what you do in life! I actually have told a few friends about my blog and plans for YouTube and they have been really supportive and encouraging. These are friends who do matter to me and this has definitely increased my confidence about making YouTube videos and making this blog no longer an anonymous blog. Even if YouTube does not work out, I will feel better knowing that I had tried something new and different.

I think to overcome this I want to make YouTube videos. That way, I am not just showing myself to my friends (If they happen to find my videos) but also everyone else. I sat infront of the camera and was filming my first video and I was shaking really bad and I was sooooo nervous, because I was thinking of what could be said, what could be thought of me, and is what I am doing really right? Just writing this, I am overthinking about if it’s right, like I want to post it but I don’t want to post it and it is unbelievably annoying me and I want to get past that feeling.

So that is my plan, for the upcoming future. I definitely think this is the right step forward for me. Anyone experiencing self confidence/ esteem issues should try and think about what they currently have in their life. Then think if all of that makes you happy and content, now you know there is something missing, it might be something you would never think of or it could be something simple. Mine was that I watch an excessive amount of YouTube and always wanted to do it, but I never have, until now. I am also going to take up running because I feel about unsure of my body image, but I want to mainly do it to help clean my mind and use the time spent to think about everything and feel positive. People say running is good, so I am gonna try it!

Try not to think you are someone who is little, stand tall and proud with a postive attitude and a positive outlook on life. Tidy your surroundings, clear junk out, start afresh and anew.

What are your experiences of this and is there any other way you might suggest to help overcome it and have better self confidence? Let me know

Hope I helped!

 

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Recipe #2 – Lasagne!

Hey Guys!

This week we made lasagne. It was actually my first time making this, I tend to just go for a simple pasta bake however I thought I would try something new.

Okay, the ingredients;Ingredients

– 1000 g lean beef mince

– 200 mL hot beef stock

– about 3 tablespoons olive oil

– a block of cheese

– lasagne sheets (standard box of about 500 g will be more than plenty for this)

For the tomato sauce;

– 2 onions

– 2 garlic cloves

– 2 tbsp tomato purΓ©e

– 200 mL white wine (I use blossom hill a small bottle (187 mL) they only cost about Β£2)

– 1200 g tinned chopped tomatoes (3 x 400 g tins)

For the white sauce we used Dolmio cheesy white sauce simply to save time, and we have never made white sauce before, plus this was cheaper…they had an offer on! πŸ˜€

LET’S GET TO IT!!!

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Step 1: Heat 1 tbsp of olive oil in a pan and add the chopped onion and garlic. Cook until brown and soft. ThenΒ add the tomato paste, cook for a little longer whilst stirring continuously. Add the wine like you are a true italian! I believe it is italian to add wine to dishes like this, I hope that is not offensive….It is also tradition for the french to drink wine whilst cooking! That I can say because I am half french…but I diagress. So the wine is added, you need to bring to the boil and allow it to reduce, it takes about 5 minutes. After this add the tinned tomato and allow to simmer for 20 minutes.

Step 2: During this time you need to a) prepare the beef stock, and b) brown the mince meat for about 10 minutes. This is where timing comes in! When all of that is done, combine the tomato sauce, the beef stock and the mince meat together. Bring to the boil and simmer for 30 minutes.

 

Step 3: Preheat oven to gas mark 4 (approx 180 degrees centigrade), oil a dish then in this order add layers of meat, lasagne sheets, white sauce, and repeat 2 more times so you have 3 layers of each and the top is topped with white sauce. After this you can add your cheese to the top. We opted for normal cheddar cheese, but you usually use mozzarella strands. We also decided to use the entire block because we are cheese lovers and cheese is the best invention. After this place in the oven for 45 minutes until lightly browned.Collage Picture 2 Collage Picture 3

After this has cooked you have an amazing lasagne which I thoroughly enjoyed eating, it was delicious and there were leftovers with 4 of us eating it! Easily 6 portions there, so they could be frozen for later and cooked from frozen by just doubling the cooking time above. It’s very likely I will be doing another italian dish….I just love italian food! This was all purchased from morrisons for just a little over Β£15, with some things left over and just from this to get 6 decent portions I would definitely say it’s is good value for money!

See you soon πŸ˜€

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Weekly Update – 21st July – It’s happening!!!!! :)

Hey Guys!

I just checked today and in total I have had 200 visitors to my blog, as of this post! And tomorrow it will be 1 month since I started it. I would just like to say, whilst it is difficult to post on a more regular basis, sometimes you get bunches of posts from me in one go then none for a week! I really do appreciate all the support and people taking their time to look at my blog. So thank you x

This weekend is big for me! I think I said my last one was but this is definitely bigger! Last time I mentioned about starting a YouTube channel and that I was trying to film some videos. They did not go too great! I feel like I could have done them better and didn’t really plan them. People say you grow when doing videos and get better as time goes on which I hope will happen. However as I am anxious about doing it I feel like if I can get a decent video as my first it might make me feel more confident about continuing it all! So tomorrow I am filming….again….and hopefully, fingers crossed, it shall go better! I think it will πŸ™‚

I have 2 new posts (apart from this one) coming up over the next week. The first one is another recipe which should be posted Sunday or Monday. The second is my self confidence post which should go up the middle of next week. I have been holding back on that one a little because I want to make sure its right :L

So far this week, I have actually progressed with labs, doing some new techniques for my project. I also went up to Manchester to move some things into my new place! Soon I shall be moving back up there which I am really looking forward to!

Anyway thats it for this one, I shall see you in a few days with another post πŸ™‚

Thanks for the support! Bye x

Exams!

Hey Guys,

Sorry for the lack of these kind of posts, been a while since the last one.

Exams are a big part of your education unless you’re lucky to take a course that has no exams…hate them people (Jokes :P).

At University you are almost guaranteed to have less exams! That is for sure. You are very likely to have January season exams whereas at college, at least now, all exams are sat in the summer. I was lucky to be, I think, the final year allowed to sit January exams when taking A levels :L

Unfortunatley, most University exams are really long. Mine are all between 2-3 hours long. You will be surprised at how quickly that time goes. So you have less exams but longer ones, you might not know and this was certainly new for me, but you can actually leave the exam within a certain time period. You have to be there for the first like 15 minutes or so, and you are not allowed to leave 15 minutes before but anytime inbetween you can (Not sure about the exact times, but it depends on the length of the exam in the first place).

My experiences of exams at University for my first year have actually been good! In January I had one 3 hour exam, as my optional module consisted of 3 exams throughout the 1st semester (like midterms I believe). So, I think I had like 6 weeks to revise for it! I was pretty confident going into it….(not trying to sound cocky)….I am surprised at myself for not getting so stressed. If you recall from my posts related to stress that I am most certainly a stressful person when it comes to exams however I was not! It was definitely weird, although I cannot complain!

I think the thing to remember is the exams in your first year are there mainly to settle you in to Uni life, and to get you all up to the same level of knowledge as you will all have different backgrounds in that field.

When you go to University and you are about to sit exams, or you find out when they are, plan ahead. Most University courses are designed to be easily split down into smaller sections. For example, most of my modules were taken by 3 different lecturers on a different topic and so when revising for that exam. I could just learn 1 lecturers work, understand that before moving on. Planning ahead (a.k.a revision) allowed me to cover all the topics at a nice steady pace!

So, in summary… less but longer exams, its not all bad because they are only in the field you opted for. Try not to worry, they wont kill you as it’s only first year. Revision should be easy because the modules could be broken down into smaller separate sections.

Leave a comment to tell me about your experience of exams! What do you think of them? Do you prefer alternative methods of examination? Do you worry about them?

Hope it helps

Bye πŸ˜€

Recipe #1 – Calzone’s/ Pizza’s

Hey Guys,

A few days ago I made Calzone’s with my friend. So, I thought I would make a post for it and show you guys how to make them! (It’s really easy, just fold the pizza in half….. but let’s make a long post about it! :O yay!)

So, the ingredients…

IngredientsFor the dough;

225 g plain strong flour

90 mL milk*

50 mL water*

1 sachet yeast

25 mL olive oil

A pinch of salt

* The milk and the water, should technically be at room temperature, I don’t believe we allowed this to happen but it made no difference to our food!

For the filling;

Add whatever you want for the filling. We opted for mild cheddar cheese, a lloyd grossmon tomato and basil sauce thickened up with some tomato purΓ©e. We also added some chicken tikka, oven baked ham, and salami meat.

Addition of yeast, water, milk mix to flour

 

Step 1: Sieve the flour into a bowl, and in another bowl, mix together the water, the milk, and the yeast. Once done, make a well in the flour and add the mixture to the flour.

 

 

 

Dough after addition

Step 2: Mix well and try to get as much air into the mixture as possible. Once you see the result in the picture to the left, flour the work surface and knead the dough for 5-10 minutes getting as much air in as possible. Whilst kneading the dough add the olive oil to the dough, just drizzle it on a bit at a time.

 

 

 

Step 3: After kneading the dough, return to the bowl (means less dishes when washing up :L), cover with clingfilm or a damp towel and put somewhere warm (we opted for the microwave as there was no room anywhere else). Leave for about 1-2 hours to rise, here are the before and after pictures;

Dough side by sideStep 4: Add a pinch of salt, and knead the dough for a further 5 minutes. You then cut the dough up into smaller pieces, for reasonably sized calzones I would suggest 3 pieces. You can allow these to rise again if you wish, we did not. Also preheat oven to gas mark 8.

Step 5: Roll out the smaller pieces of dough and place on a baking sheet that is lightly floured so they can be removed easily. Leaving an edge, fill one half of your calzone with all your toppings, wet the edge and then fold over the empty half to stick. The dough should be thick enough so that the filling does not burst out, but not too thick that you cannot put a lot of filling in. If you are just doing a pizza just cover all the top with your filling. Place in the oven for about 8-12 minutes until golden. The calzone should be hard like a brick and not soft still. Leave to cool slightly and then enjoy πŸ˜€

Finished Calzone Inside Calzone Pizza

And that is how you make calzone’s and pizza’s, they were delicious! All of the ingredients were bought for under Β£10, we chose to buy them at Tesco. There are other alternative stores where this can all be bought. When buying the ingredients we tried to get the cheapest items with the best quality. There was also some flour left over, enough to repeat this recipe a few more times.

See you soon!

Weekly Update – 14th July! Best week yet of the summer holiday! :D

Hey Everyone,

This week at work, nothing has greatly happened there. However this week I thought about maybe making some videos for YouTube, suggested by some friends, about Uni (things on this blog), life issues and like challenges. It’s not all sorted, and I am just trying it all out with the editing aspect and trying to film some decent videos and a few of them so I can upload them whilst at University and not need to worry.

I will let you know when and if I do upload videos, I have some reasons why I am unsure about doing this (which is actually part of a future post I want to write), but keep reading and I am sure I will be!

Also, I learnt if you want a temporary fire for a BBQ, put some marshmallows on the fire, it will create a big flame!!!!! (I had a BBQ :L)

And finally, I made calzones! πŸ˜€ I have a friend who is going University this September and I am ‘teaching’ her to make different foods, not neccessarily healthy but maybe something from scratch, batch foods, fun foods and cake! (cake gets its own mention). So I am going to be posting any meals I cook, start something new on here.

So on my blog there will be;

– Experiences through Uni (my first year)

– Weekly Updates

– Recipes

– Life issues

– (Starting Soon) Updates on Uni when I start 2nd Year

– And maybe YouTube videos πŸ˜‰ we will see!

I will be posting the first recipe blog either tonight or tomorrow so keep a look out for that!

See you soon πŸ™‚

 

No more peer pressure! :O

Hey people!

As I said before in a previous post, coming to University meant I tried new things; alcohol, clubbing… not sleeping πŸ˜›

I was worried about this because most (not all) people I would be meeting have at least tried this. Therefore, it was possible that I might have been pressured into trying these new things.

Thankfully, I was not peer pressured into these things as I thought I would have been. Which is weird but I was very glad.

A few days after starting Uni, I found myself trying some cider. People were confused as to why I did not drink, I said I personally did not want to because I was never exposed to it via family, and well it was something I just never considered in life.

The reason why I decided to try some cider, was I felt that, as I was around new people who were really understanding of my ‘lack of experience’ and they were not forcing upon me, which I respected!.

With the clubbing situation I was more nervous about. Maybe because of that awkward feeling of expressing oneself through the form of ‘intoxicated dance’ ( I say intoxicated because sometimes when I went out I had little to drink ) and sometimes just ‘dance’. My flatmates made me feel comfortable though and said we would stay in a group. I prefer going with friends to have a good time and enjoy ourselves!

To this day, my alcohol tolerance is very low (I am a lightweight) which is very good as I do not have to spend a lot of money (#studentbudget). To clarify, I don’t drink alcohol like its water, I actually rarely drink, only when going out, and I do not do that often! But I reach a point where my brain tells me to just not drink anymore, so I don’t.

This is just me telling you how I am surprised at people, I felt that this topic of alcohol would be a great source of people being ‘egged on’ to drink, but it wasn’t! People can be peer pressured, not into what I have talked about, but a lot of things, drugs and smoking to name a few examples.

You guys might get pressured into things so let me know about your experiences of peer pressure, and how you dealt withit! I hope that if you are soon to be a fresher, that your new friends respect you.

See you around πŸ™‚